hi dear you =)

woaw... have been away for so long :p 

there's been quite a few of changes recently: am going to change job soon, 24/09 is going to kiss my teaching job goodbye, 25/09 will be in the hug of my new job! 

Working for this luxury brand "Roger Vivier" is going to be a whole new experience for me.. thank god my time studying those shoe trends and designers did pay off during my interviews! ..and who would've thought that listing "piano" under "hobby" on my CV would help me on getting the job! :p  my friend who's already working there told me they've been looking for someone for a year.. therefore I'm very glad to be chosen :D  my uniform is on its way coming from Italy hoho~ 

Hopefully I'll be a great sales/advisor..... ^__^ and pass the 4-month probation! 

Best thing is my salary will be stable from then on~ 5 weeks paid holiday/year guaranteed, won't have to face my boss' shit attitude everytime when I ask for my well-deserved annual holiday (not to mention the drama scene he gave me after i handed in my resign letter..) ~ and YAY to lunch vouchers~ 

no u dont get it -

dont you get it? cant u see how i am dying to have my own place?????  No. dont tell me you too you too..

cuz i dont really see enough motivation from u.. dont forget, A-C-T-I-O-N speaks louder than words.

if you wanna be in this position

you better be a good one

it's OK to get frustrated, the most important thing is KNOWING HOW TO STAND UP AFTERWARD AND AMEND IT

frankly, you just show me one more time that you cannot take any adversity.. NONE of anything negative at all ! you just want to stay in ur comfort zone??!!  

that is so not attractive let me tell u..

等 還要等多久呢

很抱歉  又是來這兒吐苦水

我不想要不敬不孝  可是實在受不了跟不講理的人溝通  簡直莫名其妙  面對著只會大吼大叫的人  真的很累  抱歉  老娘的耐性只會對值得的人付出 

感覺好像又回到了不見天日的生活喔  每天只有辦公室和不屬於我的睡覺的地方  我知道我應該要慶幸還有屋簷讓我避風擋雨  可是實在是快樂不起來 

正面樂觀的想法變得好脆弱喔  很容易就被擊垮

公司裡同事真愛說話  覺得好鬧  只喜歡自己躲在小房裡  寧可誰也不跟誰說話  靜靜做自己的事  吃自己的飯盒  看自己的書

一想起我可愛的家人朋友們  就是鼻頭酸酸溼了眼 

等  好多好多的等待  希望有更多的動力  去等待  也去實現這些等待 

.. 我想  睡一覺醒來  我仍會是快樂及充滿希望和計畫的 

只想說給你聽

我的日子  忙碌而平淡的過著

每天並沒有甚麼特別期待的事

可是今天  我竟然有機會離開office一會 

和其他人一樣  走在熙來攘往的街上  透一透氣

跟著一個學生去他公司的食堂吃了頓午飯 

雖然有點趕  可是這讓我稍稍高興了一樣

對你來說  根本沒甚麼特別的是嗎 

那好吧  

其實從幾天前我一直喉嚨不適  只是為了工作  不得不開口講話 

除非必要  是不願開口出聲的 

只有你  是我唯一想要分享我一天的人

可是你卻對我說  "那有甚麼特別的?!"

知道嗎  你這句話  著實讓我啞然

是的  我的日子的確是沒甚麼特別的

也沒甚麼值得驕傲的  沒甚麼值得興奮  沒甚麼值得一提的

是的  不過是去個食堂   和別的男人吃了頓飯罷了

有時候 

不  很多時候 

當有學生會對我發問  問及我的感受時 

我真是很高興的  也很感激 

會傻傻地微微笑起來

而你  在意的又是甚麼呢

是我如何讓你快樂  

卻不是我如何讓自己過了快樂的一天

我失望了  徹徹底底的 

一直以為我倆擁有的  是可貴的

可是  你所感受的  又是甚麼呢

好吧  既然吃頓飯沒甚麼好說的

那便不說了吧  

其實我   只想說給你聽

you are real

when you hold up my face in your both hands

and look at me with your lovingly eyes

telling me, "baby don't cry.."

with your tender lips

no more words need to be said

no more actions need to be done

this, signifies the promise of a lifetime

I want to forever remember this,

because this is what keeps me feeling, the true essence of my life.

I must keep reminding myself,

if I ever get bewildered... if I ever get blinded...

I must remember this scene, this day, this time...

how your eyes, looked into mine...